Ok, I'm quite freaked out. Because my baby is quite small, I've been taking weekly visits to the hospital to be scanned and monitored to check everythings ok.
The OB who reviewed my results seems concerned that the baby is smaller than even the average small baby. I have to have her measured during another scan on Wednesday and if she hasn't gotten significantly bigger by then, they want to deliver her much sooner than her due date.
I haven't been told exactly when but the date that I've heard thrown around is the 23rd November.

Eeeekkkkk!!!!!

So I'm freaking out on several points over this.

1. I am sssooo not ready for labour. I have NO pain tolerance, I tire far too easily to be able to put up with a long labour, I've been to NO ante-natal classes (stupid,stupid,stupid) and because of the risks/pain involved in some methods of pain relief, I want to avoid epidurals/morphine if at all possible and am seriously not keen on a C-section (scar being the main reason).

2. I have no baby supplies and the house is in tatters. We have a decorated hallway but no flooring, a living room which has all the furniture shoved to one side, all the wallpaper stripped and a giant hole where the fireplace basically fell in on itself. I have a bathroom with no flooring because we took it up when the shower started leaking through the floor and we still need to take the shower cubicle out and replace it with a bath. The kitchen is tiny and awkwardly shaped (washing machine barely fits in the designated place for it)and outdated, not to mention the roof is still all mangled from where the bathroom floor leaked through to the next floor.
Althought he baby's room is decorated I have only a few clothes for her (thanx to friends and family) and only have a crib which isn't even built yet.

3. I am so sure I'm not ready to bring a baby home. I have a mental age barely in the double figures sometimes and I'm so easily upset/annoyed/any random burst of emotion you care to name that I'm sure I'll freak the first time she greets (that means "cries" for my American friends lol)at anything or if she gets ill or something I'm just useless. I can't do anything right at the best of times.

This might be a bit premature since she might not need delivered early but it's still brought things into perspective a bit and made me a bit panicky about not being ready yet.